It's late...

It’s late on a Friday night, had a few shots of Jack – more than I should have, but enough to let the words flow more freely. Not sure what I want to say, where the words should lead… Ramble on… feelin old – not ready to die “old”, maybe just tired – but a tired that sleep can’t fix. Wanna close my eyes for a night er a day er longer, wanna have my body wake with no aches, no pains… wanna have my mind be clear, no questions, no maybes, no what ifs… wanna have my heart in tune with the now, not the yesterdays of months and years gone by – pains n questions n lost loves – yet they are what made me what I am, I am nothing without them. Yet who am I? Where am I going?

Darkness

I know too well the darkness that I see and feel

I know the comfort that it brings to me

The isolation, the loneliness that seals me away

Yet I long for the sunshine, its brilliance and warmth

Its energy that I lack.

Dare I step from the shadows into the light?

So many things to be done along that path

Can I, do I have the strength to see them done

Would someone reach out, no, it is mine

My track to take, my footprints to make

Put the darkness behind me one last time

Deep inside I sense it will be a fruitless attempt

I know the light dies and darkness returns

I will begin again to struggle to wrench myself from its cloak

Again and again and again

But I will rise against it time after time

If only to see the light in the distance and dream of its embrace

To imagine the passion it holds for my being and soul

Tomorrow, tomorrow is my day, my chance

For now I will lay in the darkness hoping for that tomorrow…

What's a blog? Something to do between wash cycles...

Ha, no more dull dark background... pretty spiffy.. Maybe I'll come back more often?!?LOL
Sunday morning sunshine out the front window - what happened to the hurricane winds and swirling snow flakes that had everybody so traumatized for poor Peyton this evening? Of course, turn your head around here and the weather WILL change. Hmm that's enuf about football.

Soooooo what next?!? What is a blog supposed to be - err more important what's "MY" blog supposed to be? The older posts were literary delights to stimulate the senses, emotional expressions to twist the heart strings or dramatic descriptions of life changing events that I happened to put down on paper - err screen err monitor. Not necessarily to share or broadcast across the electron highway - more often than not what would have been a few scribbles on coffee - err whiskey stained scraps of paper kept hidden away and viewed occasionally for my own edification. An I would expect that will continue to be the case.

But shouldn't this be more? Maybe I should post a weekly summary of - nah that's what folks do on Facebook. Maybe share a recipe or two - nah that's what folks do on Facebook. Maybe champion a political candidate or cause - nah that's what folks do on Facebook. Ha... I know...I'll express my 2 - errr cents worth of... hmmm Wheres the damn cent sign? It should be out here on my keyboard not relegated to some innocuous hidden table, buried with the all those scientific symbols that no one really knows what they mean and don't use - kinda like that stuff you learned in high school physics. Hmmm the poor penny sign has lost it's significance - I guess nobody was using it on Facebook.

Oh crap, the washing machine is hungry - gotta go feed it a couple more socks n some change...

Later....